It’s been far too long since I have graced my readership with a post. A lot has happened, it’s almost impossible to clearly discern where to start.
To say the least, it’s been a maelstrom.
- I decided to separate from my boyfriend of seven years.
- Soon after our separation, my best friend admitted to me that he was in love with me.
- At that point I entered a pseudo relationship with him and continued my separation with my ex and moved back to my hometown in hopes of leading an independent life and finishing the college education that I felt my ex was holding me back from.
- I moved in with my parents for a short while…which was the biggest and most regrettable mistake I can admit I have made. My parents and I have always had a violently turbulent relationship but my mother had reassured me that they had changed and that their home was open to me.
Boy, was I in for a surprise.
I should have known that things would only be peaceful if they got what they wanted: they didn’t my son to see his father ever again and I would have to obey their every single command. Of course this was lunacy and I opted to allow my son to have as much visitation as he’s like with his Daddy. This, oddly enough, enraged my step father so much that he nearly through a heavy wooden dining room chair at my 5 year old son.
Fuck that shit.
So, understandably I left. With no where to go and no one to turn to, my ex came swooping in to save the day and not only paid for a hotel for a week but also paid to put us in our new apartment. It was truly a godsend and I began questioning everything… I had left David only because my spirit and psyche was not happy.
The thing about him is that he is not an intellectual and doesn’t really have much to talk about, lest it be sports or video games. Although video games do happen to be my thing, playing Resident Evil 5 daily can be a tiresome thing after a while. Not to mention, suck the intellect out of you. Of course, there are a number of other issues that caused my decision…but truly they would be a bore to the speculator.
Now you know…as concisely as I could put it. This month has been quite an odd adventure, but a defining journey nonetheless. More to come, I assure you!